So today was a big day for me. You see, I hate to admit this, but my mother has taken to "supervising" all of my meals (save the one snack in the AM had with my neighboor.) But today, today was new. I am no longer required to have my aforementioned and aggravating neighboor present with me to witness the consumption of my morning snack. And today, I even was able to eat lunch all on my own. You have no idea how liberating this was after nine months.
I went to the sea wall. It was incredibly windy, but quite pretty.
I love Long Beach. I used to go roller skating at the rink down the block when I was younger.
On with today...
Another mighty breakfast bowl.
In the mix: Dorset Berries n Cherries muesli, BearNaked granola and trail mix, almonds, lemon vanilla cashew nectar bar, cinnamon, Soy Vanilla Chai protein shake and sliced banana. Also slightly pictured is a glass of plum juice and the plate that held my toast with jam. I had something really similar to this last week, I know. But I really liked it! I warm the shake up in the mircowave for 30-40 seconds before pouring it on top everything. ^.^
Snack: Fage 2%, chopped green apple, Kashi Autumn Wheat, honey. OMG! I have never had Fage with chopped apple before today. Sooo good! Why did this never occur to me? I mean, really. Duh. Plus the shredded wheats, and it was great.
My first alone meal. I've eaten snacks on my own before, but never a full meal. And this one was rather different, I must say. Sandwich: Avocado-grated carrot-cucumber. Cottage cheese parfait consisting of: green peas, cottage cheese, and sliced tomato (with a little left over cucumber). I know that sounds totally out there, but it was really neat and I would definitly have it again. I also had an apple juice box.
And lunch dessert, on my own, without being told I had to eat it...
The end all be all. And just as divine as it was the first time.
Afternoon Snack: Cottage cheese, Fruit&Nut granola, chopped figs
After my snack, I actually hung out with a friend for awhile. Sometimes, its weird who stays with you after everything. I've known this kid for five or six years, and I never would have thought he'd be someone I was still talking to. Meanwhile, the friends I thought I'd have forever, I hardly speak to anymore. Weird, yes?
Dinner: Grilled salmon, whole wheat penne with olive oil, greens and sprinkling of seeds. Also mixed in peas, broccoli, and string beans. I really like this dinner - its so easy. I'm not terribly fond of eating the fish, but I'll do it for now. At least I am proving to myself that my choice to be vegetarian was not ED-related.
Dessert with dinner was: vanilla Chobani (need to buy my Oikos tomorrow!) with ground flax, crunchy peanut butter and orange marmalade. love this combination.
Nighttime snack was my new favorite...
In ze bowl:Oats with vanilla caramel coffee creamer, cinnamon, brown sugar, fresh and carmelized strawberries (cooked some of them in with a bit of the brown sugar on top) strawberry preserves, and nutella. Really. I highly reccomend this combination.
Today has been a really good day. My mom LOVED her birthday present. I woke myself up at five in the morning and sprawled into the kitchen to give it to her first thing. She was quite surprised. And she wore the necklace to work today and brought the card in to "show everyone how talented her daugher was". That made me feel really good - I was so happy she liked it. I was terrfied it wasn't good enough. On top of that, I met all of my challenges quite successfully. Yay. ED was not so happy about that, but tough noogies.
I am really, really hot again. :sigh: Terrified of what that means as its been happening quite frequently. Discussion of increasing to 4,000+ has been held. Depending on how things go, I may be adding a milkshake into my day somewhere. My mom asked me today what flavor ice cream I wanted. I told her I really didn't think I could pick it out with ED's influence. So she had me make a list consisting of ED-comfortable flavors and we made one together from what we could recall me liking as a child. She is going to look them over and purchase one without my prescence. I am really glad she understood and was willing to do it that way for me. That way, its out of ED's hands entirely and mine as well. Sometimes, choice is still a bit overwhelming to me, so I do occasionally need a bit of outside input. I think thats okay for now though, since I am still kinda struggling at times to determine what I WANT as opposed to what I think I can have. There is a big difference, yknow? But I'll get there.
Hope everyone's week is going off to a good start!
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