The sky today is rather unfriendly - gray, gloomy, and cold. However, my breakfast this morning was exceptionally cheerful and tropical. I soaked some 5-grain cereal overnight in apple juice and this morning mixed it up with a Fage 2% peach yogurt, a big handful of almonds, and a large sliced banana. I topped it off with some Bear Naked granola (one of my favorite brands), honey and a teensy pinch of coconut just for kicks. It was really quite good - the first time I have ever tried a Fage fruited yogurt and I was quite impressed. This was a totally different twist on the way I usually make my overnight-oats - usually I use a blueberry Chobani with chopped apple, and I have never used both soaked oats and granola. So while its not a huge change, it was some experimentation.
Morning snack was a good one. I mixed apple sauce with cinnamon and vanilla Carnation Instant Breakfast (I know...but we have a whole box from when I was still having a hard time digesting food - my system got pretty fucked up when I hit my low) I heated it up, stirred in about a quarter cup of raisins and added some Dorset muesli and almonds. Yum. This always reminds me of apple pie.
Lunch was an old favorite - avocado and sliced green apple sandwich. I also had some mixed veggies topped with cottage cheese and the remainder of my apple. For lunch dessert, I nuked a Cocoa Mole Larabar in the microwave for about ten seconds. This is one of my favorite flavors ^.^ Its so warm and spicy, especially after its been heated.
Afternoon snack was simple - vanilla Chobani Greek yogurt with two scoops of trail mix and some ground flax. Also another favorite of mine haha. I love my Greek yogurt.
Today has held some rather unexpected surprises. Like a friend of mine from high school called me today to see if I wanted to hang out. I have not seen this girl in about two years. We were best friends, but the severity of my eating disorder and all its accompaniments caused her to become afraid of being my friend. So, like many others, she just stopped talking to me. But we had been talking online through facebook, and I guess the fact that I have made so much progress from where I was is becoming more and more evident, and she actually wanted to hang out. So I figured what the hell, why not? I am still going to be wary of our friendship, but it was really nice to have someone want my friendship again. Most of my friends are guys, and most of them generally want something other than friendship. Not that I really mind, but it makes it hard to feel like I have someone I can talk to. I have one or two friends that I can really talk to, but even then I find myself being afraid of telling what's really in my heart or mind, either because I don't quite trust them, or just because it seems weird to talk to them about certain things. So I really hope that the old friendship can be picked up again and rekindled. It would be nice.
The Ebb and Flow
3 months ago