So today has been pretty good, all things considered. My eating disorder was highly annoyed with how much indoors-time I had today. But yknow what? I ate everything I was supposed to eat anyways. I also made birthday presents for my mom, since her birthday is tomorrow.
Home-made necklace and card. For real, everyone who knows me gets one on their birthday. I've been making TONS of necklaces lately. I do beading and hemp mostly. I should start raffling them off, no?
My breakfast this morning was massive. Not full-wise, but with how many calories I was able to pack into it. 1,010 including my glass of juice. Since I woke up late, this was a huge help. Carnation Instant Breakfast packets and my beloved Soy Vanilla Chai seriously saved the day.
In the mix: Oatbran cooked with cinnamon, CIB, Vanilla Chai shake and half a banana. Topped with BearNaked granola, almonds, dried figs and the rest of the banana. Also cottage cheese with marmalade and a glass of plum juice. This was really good - the bowl wasn't enormous and getting that many calories in first thing made the rest of my day much easier.
I bet you're all wondering about the Starbucks title of this post. Well here it is:
Starbucks Peachy Raspberry Parfait with Granola. I also brought a snack-baggie filled with trail mix, as I knew this wasn't really enough calories...but since we went first thing in the morning I really didn't think I could stomach one of their fancy drinks. I have a hard time with really rich foods, especially first thing in the morning, I always end up with a stomach ache. This was a huge challenge for me, as I have always really struggled with the eating out in public thing. But this went really, really well. I wasn't nervous at all, which was amazing to me. I felt comfortable! It was surprising, but definitly surprising in a good way. I think next time, I'll try for an afternoon snack and get one of those things that I can't pronounce and have never come near before.
Lunch was crunchy peanut butter (PB&Co to be specific) with orange marmalade. On the side there is green beans, tomato, cucumber and cottage cheese. I also had a cherry-pomegranate clif nectar bar. I'm going to miss those - I still can't believe they are being discontinued.
Afternoon Snack: vanilla Chobani with ground flax, dried cherries and a heaping spoonful of Dark Chocolate Dreams. This was another "did I really just eat that?" moment today. It felt so lush, even though I knew it was healthy. But I enjoyed it nonetheless. Definitly something to try again.
Dinner wasn't terrible photogenic. It was a mish-mash of leftovers. Bulgur-hummus-roasted red peppers and spinach salad with olive oil and ground seeds, tuna salad (mixed with peas) and assorted veggies.
I also had a glass of chocolate soy milk and a rice cake with cinnamon raisin PB. It was a whole rice cake, but I cut it in half so I could dunk some in my soymilk ^.^
For nighttime snack - I tried another new one - apple pie oats. Oats with cinnamon bun coffee creamer, cinnamon, brown sugar and a chopped apple. Topped with cinnamon raisin PB and jam. It sounds weird, I know, but it was actually really good.
I'm really excited about tomorrow. I always get super-giddy about giving people gifts, especially ones that I've made. I don't know why, it just makes me feel really good. I'm thinking I might stop in at my mom's work and surprise her with it. Or I might give it to her first thing in the morning. I'm trying to figure out what the best surprise would be. Hmm. It will come to me, I know it. I just really hope that she likes it. I'm a bit nervous that she won't. But at least I know she will like the card, for sure.
Hope everyone has had a good weekend. You all are so wonderful to me - you have no idea how much I appreciate every word of every comment. I know you all say I am inspiring and what not, but you all have motivated me so much in the past without even realizing it. So, I just wanted to say thank you.
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